Dear Diary,

It was another one of those long, tedious school nights. As usual, I was busy studying the first few chapters of my marketing textbook when suddenly she came up to me and tried to engage in a conversation in order to persuade me to do something of her bidding.

Okay, so it started out with something like, "Les, I know you're busy with school and all, but I would appreciate it if you would take care of -- because you're both in the same university blahblahblah..." and all that jazz. And just to clear things up, I was obliged to take care of this person in school who's pretty much a family friend. I get along fine with that person, and we sometimes talk to one another, but it seems to me that she is expecting too much of me. She knows I am busy as hell this semester, she knows I'm an officer of my org, and yet amidst all these, in her eyes I will never amount to anything more than just another petty screw up of a kid who has nothing better to do with her life.

( More ranting under the cut )

In hindsight, I think it's just unfair that I've been working my ass off by myself, and despite it already being a thankless job, I still get scrutinized, nitpicked and reprimanded at for all my shortcomings. I'm just SO awfully tired of this sad reality that I can't even muster the energy to cry anymore. Goddamnitalltohell.

- Les

I did my spring cleaning earlier tonight to rid my filthy cabinet of overly cluttered books and readings (which I am planning on using as scratch paper later on). In case any of you might need these books, I can lend them for next semester:

Marriage and Human Sexuality (TH 131) - Dacanay and Asis, Ph.D.
Intermediate Microeconomics (EC 111) - Varian
Cost Accounting: A Managerial Emphasis 13th ed. (ACC 101) - Horngren
An Introduction to Organizational Behavior 12th ed. (LS 100) - Robbins and Judge
The Law on Obligations and Contracts (LAW 11) - De Leon
Principles of Economics 4th ed. (EC 102) - Mankiw
Business Statistics in Practice 4th ed. (QMT 11) - Bowerman and O'Connell
Romancing Science: Readings in Science and Society (SCI 10) - Cuyegkeng, Ph.D.
Calculus For Business, Economics, Life Sciences and Social Sciences 9th ed. (MA 19/20) - Barnett, Ziegler and Byleen

That's all. Have a nice day. :)

- Les

Again, out of boredom I drew Hayley (from Paramore) in FB Grafitti...



In any case:

1) I've been planning out my tentative schedules (for the upcoming semester) for the past few days and talking over with some of my block mates and friends over which classes we'll be taking together.

2) I'm caught between two dilemmas at the moment:
i) Whether to step up for EB position or not.
ii) Whether to take the SOM minor in Information Science or not.

3) I'm getting a haircut tomorrow. Fuckyeah. :))

See you around.

- Les

Just thought of this after giving a friend some rather straightforward advice...

( Just my two cents )

And there you have it. A sample of my blunt honesty. :))

Cut to the chase, the reason why I want to write this, and in the wee hours of the morning at that is because I want to make something very clear. I don't like indecision. :) (see that smiley face? i'm still sane and happy while writing all this down, okay? =)) )

You've been there, I've been there, we've ALL been there. If there's something I've learned the hard way back in high school, it's that aloofness is far worse than taking a stance that everybody's against. Picture this: you're inside a building in the middle of an earthquake. You have two options -- either to go up and take refuge on the topmost floor, or go down to ground level where you can safely exit the building. But in the end, you just decided to stay put where you are and let the concrete push you down to die an unnecessary death. I mean, is that how people want to portray themselves nowadays? To always remain in the grey area, where they believe they'd be forever safe under the premise of the "benefit of the doubt"?

And what saddens me the most is that I believe people can be better than that, and yet, a lot of them still go on with their petty, mundane, routinely lives thinking that if they follow the system, if they can do what is expected of them for one day, if they can spend the rest of their time dilly-dallying, then that would be enough. Yes, it may be hard--no, even remotely impossible to simply wake up one day and tell yourself, "no matter how fucked up my life is, no matter what potholes lie ahead of me; I'm going to assert myself and live, love, laugh and just take on whatever cards life has to deal me with." I just wished people had more of that bravado or even just a tiny hint of intention to lead them with their lives and not merely go through each day like glass-eyed mannequins waiting for the moment they finally weather and corrode and be replaced by hopefully better models.

Why I associated this with my friend's question on love is because of much regret for something I wasn't able to do myself (and no, it's not something romantic or about a guy), and I hope that you would construe me well when I re-emphasize the words Carpe Diem.

You see I really hate being emotionally vulnerable. Perhaps the last time I actually broke down in front of a lot of people was during our Days With the Lord retreat. I can only vaguely remember one of our guest speakers sharing this story about a father waiting for his son, a little kid, outside the premises of his school. While the dad was waiting inside the car, a gang of thieves suddenly appeared, robbed him off of his money, shot him and left him for dead. When the son arrived, he found his dad lying on the ground, devoid of life. It was then that he realized that 1) he was seconds too late, and 2) he could never say, "I love you" to his dad ever again.

Funny that even though I've heard these kinds of tragic stories over dozens of times, something about that story and how it was delivered just -- pierced right through me. =))

Sige na nga, ang weak ko naman. =))

As I've said before in my tumblr post, I guess I just want people to just friggin' appreciate the fact that they have choices in life, whether involving sacrifices or not. Sure, you see that friend of yours everyday and like most people, you think that, "heck, I'll see him/her later/the next day/whenever anyway, so I don't really have to tell him/her everything I think about/want to say right now."

But what if that later/next day/whenever never comes at all?

Ah rats, I'm getting tired. Just something to leave you with. SQUIRREL! =))

- Les

First of all, I would just like to say that I find this topic perfectly in tune with my situation as of the moment. :)

Personally, I don't hold anything against anyone simply because they have an opinion contradictory to mine. Just because people may disagree with me doesn't automatically quantify them to be in the wrong. I believe in liberal citizenship laws, animal rights, LGBT and environmental awareness, but of course knowing for a fact that there is an existing stance would somehow imply that there will always be an opposing view against it.

Which brings me to my matter of concern.

Why is it so easy for people to point a finger at someone when it is highly questionable that they themselves possess the credibility to do so?

Honestly, I've always believed that no matter what happens, I can never find it in myself to judge anyone, ABSOLUTELY anyone. It's not that I want to appear as humble, or that because it's perceived as ethically "wrong" to let my preconceived notions get in the way of understanding the whole picture beforehand I should keep my opinion to myself. For since time immemorial, people have been allowing themselves to let what others think about them dictate the way they act, the way they feel, heck even the way they live. Are rules and norms that powerful that living a life not bending to their will can't be considered a life at all?

Inasmuch as it dismays me seeing other people doing things incompatible to my principles or believing in something I cannot personally put coherently into good sense, I really cannot bring it upon myself to judge them for what they do. After all, who am I to say such a thing? My own life isn't perfect. I'm no Mary Sue myself. Before I knew who my friends were, I was criticized, trampled upon and scorned by the very people I trusted the most, and because of this, I was compelled to retaliate against the world by inconspicuously being the antithesis of my friendly, accommodating and outgoing self. Behind that happy-go-lucky and giddy facade is a rebellious nonconformist who desperately wants to break out of her shell, release her frustrations and possibly gun down everything in sight. I enjoy drinking, I enjoy gambling, and I don't go to mass. Perhaps that's already a nice, subtle way of putting it, to say the least. Yes, you're probably thinking, "Oh, Lesly wouldn't do that. She's always in a good mood and she doesn't look like she's got problems anyway." Well sorry to disappoint you, but EVERYONE's got problems in life, and you know that. Life sure as hell wasn't fair to me when a particular incident happened to me back in grade school, which forced me to move someplace else and then followed by tons of shit piling up one after the other in the years to come. Eventually I've come to realize that no one can absolutely be "clean" enough to regard himself as higher than anyone else. I wanted to be a good student, a good daughter, a good citizen, but what I ended up becoming was very much contrary to my ideals. And all that because my actions DO define who I was, who I am and who I will be. However, even if that may be the case doesn't mean that people can't do something about themselves and their situation. People are capable of changing and making a difference in this world, and they WILL.

There are a lot of things I hold true and want to believe in, and in spite of failing myself dozens and dozens of times at trying to stay faithful to these philosophies, I still think that once a person discovers that he has the potential to make things work for him, it is never too late for him to decide what to do with his life. One may have been a criminal some point back then, but was it because he chose to be a criminal? Or was it because his circumstances in life forced him into that situation, and in due time, he finally immersed himself into this compartmentalized stereotype of a role that he finally accepted that he was one after all? Maybe it's just me, but when we give people these certain identities, in the long run we don't get to see who that person really is and likely can be. And these political views and shiz are just one friggin' piece of the puzzle. Are you going to allow yourself to only see that side which you abhor? Does friendship really need to solely rely on having similar opinions and interests and not how much that person really means to you and to your mundane existence?

Maybe I can be stubborn at times. Maybe I want to fight for those things I hold dear to me. But amidst these, nothing stands in the way of how much I value my friends and that link which binds us together (okay, too cheesy =)) ). Truth to be told, there are times when I do get upset or pissed off at what they do, and sometimes I feel I can just rant about how careless and idiotic they can be on and on without an ounce of hesitation. Nevertheless, at the end of the day, nothing can change the fact that they're still my friends, and I am eternally thankful that I am alive to have known them and for them just being there when I need an outlet for my anger and countless problems that I can't share with just anybody else.

I just hope that the next time you'd want to end a friendship or relationship so casually, you'd think again. Something just triggered me to write about this, and I thought it wouldn't hurt to speak up about an issue that's been on my mind for a while now.

... Also somehow I think I could have said much more than this, but since I've been watching these videos of some random guy doing his version of various songs on YouTube, I think my brain has already started deteriorating. So yes, forgive me for that. =))

- Les

P.S. As a warning to those who are attempting to spam my LJ, please only leave comments that are related and relevant with respect to my entries. Thank you and have a nice day.

This is why I love you, Writer's Block. You really make me think. :))

You know, no matter how overly ridiculous and baseless those predictions online psychics prophesy are, the reason why you would even bother to consult their help in the first place is because YOU yourself need the advice. I mean, if we were all so sure of ourselves, if we were all so perfect and infallible, why would we not have just tread along with life and made decisions we were so sure of? Why would we need fields of knowledge such as psychology and epistemology if we knew exactly who we were and what kind of things we were meant to do in this lifetime? And why, despite having known ourselves for like, 20 years we still find the need to answer online surveys even just to see which category of school kids we fall in, what kind of fate befalls our horoscope today, and heck, even what kind of Disney Princess we would be. =))

So say, an online psychic tells me to cancel my plans for a party, would I do it? Well, for a first, heck no. Unless it's another typhoon millenia coming our way, or the Apocalypse itself, I doubt there's anything stopping me from going there. Secondly, would I refuse to date someone with a clashing astrological sign? Well, for a fact, I don't read too much into horoscopes. Not to say I don't believe, but if it forecasts an inevitability into my activities, there's no way I'm allowing a horoscope reading to spoil my day. Astrological signs are merely a given, and if for example someone that you like very much just happens to have a contradicting sign with yours, would you allow that to hinder your friendship? Think again. We all carve our own destinies, if ever there were such a thing to define. We are that change we wish to see.

If there were some advice I would like to give to people today, I would say, time and time again, that you can't allow anyone, absolutely anyone to tell you that you can't do something. Even if life turns shitty, even if you had to amputate a limb because of some incident, if there's a will, there's a water. =)) \m/

- Les

P.S. ABI. WE NEED TO TALK. =))

Dear Diary,

It all started with my microeco blockmate Ferdie posting his status on ym which basically says: "wants red horse happy horse and new running shoes please :)) :P" So I started asking him what this so-called "happy horse" is. =))

Lesly Charmaine Tan: ano ung red horse happy horse? horse na pang bata? :))
Ferdie Lajom: UM. DEINS. =))
Ferdie Lajom: mas malakas kasi yung tama sa happy horse
Lesly Charmaine Tan: WTH. seryosong may ganung klaseng beer?
Ferdie Lajom: yep. 2 happy horse ka lang, tama na agad.
Ferdie Lajom: included siya like 1 or 2 per case. swertehan lang talaga.
Ferdie Lajom: pero masarap kapag nakakuha ka sa mga party.
Ferdie Lajom: one time twice ako nakakuha. sarap talaga ng happy horse. :)
Lesly Charmaine Tan: HAHAHAHA
Lesly Charmaine Tan: still
Lesly Charmaine Tan: happy horse AMP.
Lesly Charmaine Tan: ngayon ko lang narinig ung ganun
Ferdie Lajom: nakangiti kasi yung horse sa harap
Ferdie Lajom: wait share ko photo

And so he showed me these pics of his happy horse beer...

Ferdie Lajom: there
Ferdie Lajom: oh diba? =))
Lesly Charmaine Tan: uhm...
Lesly Charmaine Tan: nakasmile nga ung horse pero red horse pa rin ung nsa harap
Ferdie Lajom: yung sa likod kasi yung red na text
Ferdie Lajom: yung magsignify lang kasi ng happy horse is the smiling horse
Lesly Charmaine Tan: i still don't see the word HAPPY.
Ferdie Lajom: =))
Ferdie Lajom: WALANG GANUN
Ferdie Lajom: ang pangit naman kung lalagyan!
Lesly Charmaine Tan: HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Lesly Charmaine Tan: OKAY
Lesly Charmaine Tan: NO COMMENT FERDIE
Lesly Charmaine Tan: AKALA KO TALAGA MAY TOTOONG HAPPY HORSE NA BEER
Lesly Charmaine Tan: =))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Ferdie Lajom: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Ferdie Lajom: EXCITED KA PA NAMAN MAKITA YUNG HAPPY
Ferdie Lajom: =))
Lesly Charmaine Tan: OO NGA EH
Lesly Charmaine Tan: TALAGANG INABANGAN KO PA UN
Lesly Charmaine Tan: =))))))

So from this interesting conversation I have thus discovered that there is no such thing as a happy horse. BOW. =))

- Les

Thus far according to iTunes, these are my top 3 artists (not songs per se because most of them don't have videos on YouTube yet):

1) EXILE feat. Bach Logic - Touch the Sky (133 plays)

Link to HD video here since embedding is disabled

2) m-flo feat. BoA - The Love Bug (75 plays)



3) UVERworld - GO-ON (62 plays)



My choice of music is usually based on rock, alternative, contemporary pop, hip-hop, jazz with rock and anything upbeat and eccentric. I've been a fan of EXILE's music since late 2007 because the lead singers have a nice vocal range and their music has both the elements of urban hiphop and dance. As for BoA, I've listened to her songs since a long time ago but just became a fan after the Best & USA album was released. And for UVERworld, I was first exposed to their music when they did the opening for Blood+ but from the website where I download various Jpop albums, this seems to be their latest best single and that's why I've been listening to them frequently.

Since I'm stuck at home today and watching college basketball on tv, I made this fan art of K-pop singer BoA on facebook. :)



We just had our 2nd (and bloodiest by far) cost accounting long exam yesterday and I just had to oversleep today. We'll be having another round of long exams next week, and in spite of Monday being a holiday I still have to go to school for Histo practice. Oh well.

( In any case, Belated Happy 4th Anniversary ICA DWTL Batch 89! :D )

This is the class yearbook cover that Asy, Geo and I made before the end of senior year. :)

- Les

Dear Diary,

Sometimes I feel very much like starting from scratch.

Like completely disregarding the fact that I am bound more to my family than my friends.

That the burden of being an upperclassman and having to balance (and in some cases compromise) acads with org work need not be such a nerve-wracking major concern.

That I actually have another chance of befriending my classmates/batchmates/schoolmates before graduation looms near.

That I don't constantly have to be reminded about how much of a slacker I am now as a student compared to how I was back then.

That I would be able to grasp even that tiny bit of freedom of being an adult and not always have to stick by the routine or be continually sheltered from the world.

That I can openly speak my mind without the fear of being measured, judged or ostracized by others.

That people would simply respect me for who I am and what I believe in.

FML.

- Les

Dear Diary,

Today my own sarcasm backfired at me.

It was in the middle of our lecture in Organizational Behavior class that my professor raised the question:

Prof: What would you say/do if a guy/girl sexually harasses you?
Me: Uhm. Please don't. =))
Prof: Say that again? You would be pleased?
Me: *to myself* Oh crap. *facepalm* =))

So with that, everyone now thinks I'm a perv. :))

And it doesn't end there.

My status message (7/9/09): "Sir De Leon: There are many kinds of addictions, both good and bad. I myself, I am addicted to PURE VIRGIN coconut oil."

Bertrand Ferrer: PURE VIRGIN
Bertrand Ferrer: ganito kasi
Bertrand Ferrer: i am addicted to pure virgin
Bertrand Ferrer: *pause*
Bertrand Ferrer: coconut oil
Lesly Charmaine Tan: hahaha... more like
Lesly Charmaine Tan: i am addicted to pure virgin
Lesly Charmaine Tan: period. :))
Bertrand Ferrer: LESLY TAN MANYAK
Lesly Charmaine Tan: that's the way uhu uhu
Lesly Charmaine Tan: i like it uhu uhu =))
Bertrand Ferrer: hahahaha
Bertrand Ferrer: nagbago tingin ko sayo
Bertrand Ferrer: you're a manyak
Lesly Charmaine Tan: o:-) <-- me
Bertrand Ferrer: o noes
Bertrand Ferrer: asaboi

Hmm yes. Very profound revelations about life.

- Les

Me? Nervous?? Ha ha. Too awesome for that.

. . . . . okay actually I DO get nervous sometimes. Depending on the situation. :))

Case in point: orals and public speaking

I would say I have better tolerance for the former than the latter because oral exams are usually held one-on-one with a professor, whilst the latter requires you to stand in front of a crowd or audience to be openly sneered and criticized at. Ultimately, any wrong move you make on a spot will be held against you, and that is why both of them are partly the bane of my existence. :)) Let me tell you though -- I've gotten over the fear of spontaneous, socially suicidal public speaking late into my high school days when we were practically cramming everything in time for our final exams and graduation. We were pretty much bombarded with oral defenses and were sometimes forced to read off from powerpoint presentations or use these rather tiny index cards as our trusty cheat sheets. However back then I used to go really pale to the point that I would at one moment forget what I was talking about, and then look back at my paper again, only to get even more lost in the middle of what I was going to say. Oh yeah, and CROSS EXAMINATIONS. I despise the fact that they just keep getting the better of me. It's hard to tell where the questions are coming from, and they're very deceiving in some ways you just wouldn't notice until they've totally caught you off guard and before you know it, you're already in the wrong. Screw it all, dammit. =))

Yes, and if you're wondering, I do make a lot of slips off the tongue and faux pas in the middle of my speeches. Like this one time with my professor...

Me: And as everyone knows, Hubble invented the Hubble telescope...
Prof: Lesly, Hubble did NOT invent the Hubble telescope.
Me: *to myself* FACK CAN I DIE NOW PLZ =)))))

So lesson is, if you ever commit an incredibly mortifying mistake like I did... just flash your killer smile at them like you've never said it in the first place. =D

And for some universally established reason, you become a magnet to even more social blunders when you're already caught up in an embarrassing situation yourself. All because Murphy said so. =))

To kick things off, I'm the oldest (or older sibling) in my family. Despite my height being 5"1 and my sis being as tall as 5"6, yes, I'm still the older one. I think birth order has influenced much of my personality such that I'm compelled to be responsible, emotionally stable and machoor :)) and sometimes it just occurs to me that I may be growing up faster than I expected. I mean, besides being the older one in the family, I'm also one of the oldest in my batch (both in high school and college), and that makes me a basis of comparison not only to one, but also to millions out there. It isn't so bad though; it's great having a sense of seniority over most people (because powertripping ain't all that bad :)) ) and being able to assert one's authority in giving sound (and in some cases not so sound) advice, but the downside of it I would admit, is being relied on too much upon. Being in this position demands me to restrain myself and not to be entirely carefree because I know that in the end, I'm still going to be answerable not only to myself but to other people as well.

Indeed, birth order has shaped a lot of who I am today, and somehow I have learned to handle things in a certain way because of it, but that doesn't mean that personality is entirely dependent on it. There are a lot of ways to determine personality, and I think it's better to simply make those decisions myself than letting others dictate them for me. After all IMO, there is no such thing as destiny; life is what you make it and you well know that. ;)

Actually I've never gone to a bar alone. The last time I've entered a bar was when we were walking around some mall and just found it fun to explore various restaurants in the area. Just to share though, there was as a matter of fact a time when some of my upperclassmen invited me to eat out after enrollment for 2nd semester last year. We ate at a pepper steak place and then suddenly afterwards, they decided to treat us out to beer at Cantina for the heck of it. And when we got there, they ordered buckets of beer for us to consume. Of course I was reluctant to join in at first since I know I don't drink (at least not beer) and one bucket of that stuff is too much, at least in my opinion. But since they insisted, I gave in and drank half a bottle of beer. It didn't make me tipsy or anything (come on, it's only half!) but I got back home later that afternoon reeking of alcohol, so my mom did get a bit upset with me. It was an amusing experience nonetheless.

Funny that I had a debut to attend that very night. Way to go Les. =))

So have I ever bought a drink for a stranger you ask? Well, frankly no, at least not for someone I didn't know, and not a drink at that. But just to say something, it's in my astrological sign to be a gentleman (though I don't believe in horoscopes all that much) so if you want someone to buy you a drink and hear you out while you're dead punch-drunk, I'm always welcome. =)) In addition, for special occasions (e.g. my birthday, class reunion, anniversary) I also usually volunteer to take care of the expenses involved. Back in freshman year whenever my english blockmates and I would hang out at the caf to eat after class I would treat them to waffles or ice cream as a plain gesture of courtesy. I also remember paying for my lit professor's bill at some pizza parlor one weekend when we accidentally met each other there. It was all good fun. Damn, those memories made me miss freshman year altogether. :))

Today as I was scouting around for Ateneo-La Salle game tickets (since DLSU sold theirs earlier during the day to my knowledge) I asked one of my batch mates in DLSU regarding the tickets in YM:

Me: steph! may nagbebenta ba ng upper B tickets sa school ninyo for this sunday's event?
Steph Yap: alam ko oo! pero ewan. ano nga ba meron sa sunday?
Me: sayang! you should have given me your log-in details so i could buy the tickets from the dlsu site.
Me: wala naman. may concert kasi eh. lady gaga. sponsor yung la salle kaya kukuha sana ako sa website ninyo. :))
Steph Yap: ahh talaga?! hahaha! thanks for telling. magkano ba yun?
Me: P75. =))

After a few minutes...

Me: JOKE LANG STEPH!!! =))
Me: hindi siya lady gaga concert. ateneo lasalle game yun! =))
Steph Yap: HAHAHA. sira ka. kaya pala nagtataka ako kung ba't ang bilis dumating ng august 12. =))

Lesson of the day: huwag maniwala sa mga nagsasabing may lady gaga concert tickets sa DLSU. =))

Because imeem has been sending me messages regarding copyright removal and my previous playlist of songs is screwed up, I'm testing imeem uploader to see if I can upload a new playlist and embed mp3 to my blog. Just going to post a few songs here, mostly j and k-pop. Thanks. :)

( click to test embedded imeem )

Hmm... there are too many to mention. But in all honesty, I would not deny that I have regretted not being more socially well-rounded and active like I am now. I suppose it's because of the pressures of high school, and the fact that I am already an achieving student that made it really difficult for me to change my regular habits. There is the fear of straying away from your normal routine (like following a curfew and catching up on homework first before anything else) that gave me the notion that deviating from what I'm used to doing = bad.

Even though I am enjoying the company of my old high school buddies and newly-made friends in college, deep down I still wish I had lived a more exciting and adventurous teenage life (of course technically I'm no longer one now) and made more friends outside of my high school social circle. That is not to say that I want to go back to high school (really, I'm very glad I'm through with all that, good riddance), but at least I would have wanted to experience more than what I always do every year (STUDYSTUDYSTUDY, train for the intrams, prep for the school and charity fairs) and explore life beyond my comfort zones. At least if I had, I would have something to animatedly share to others with about my life and not just update them about my mundane weekend spent studying for the next long exam again.

Sigh. Don't mind me if this doesn't apply to you or if you can't relate. Hahaha. :))

Stolen from Tiff

010 THINGS I WISH I COULD SAY TO TEN DIFFERENT PEOPLE RIGHT NOW.

To whomever it applies:

1. Hey, let's go out some time after your JTA sem! No excuses of missing UAAP anymore, aryt? :D
2. How come you don't go online on ym? I have so many things I want to talk about! D:
3. Hey you. You're no longer on plurk and you're missing out on all the action! Likewise, I want to tell you what I told number 1. See above. :))
4. Hahaha! We should definitely hang out again. Jack's Loft Eastwood uli? =))
5. You should join us next time to eat out when you're free. And good luck with letter T guy/girl. :|
6. I can probably join up for dinner this week, if my sked permits. Good luck with jobhunting too.
7. Hahaha. Medyo matagal na to, pero gusto mong mag-inuman? =))
8. Nice to know we loathe the same person. I'm sure a lot more share the same sentiment. :))
9. Congrats on getting in babble! See you on TV/live soon. =))
10. Hope you will be able to decide where you want to go. Sayang mga pinaghirapan mo, but if you really want it, you have my full support. :)

009 THINGS ABOUT MYSELF.

1. I am a germ freak and I don't like touching anything with dust/dirt/oil. If I do I have to look for the nearest faucet/hand sanitizer.
2. I have a fear of balloons and clowns. Yes, clowns. :(
3. I admit I do read gay mangas from time to time if I have nothing to do.
4. I still have no idea what kind of hairstyle suits me. But I plan on growing my hair long, and then cutting it again anyway.
5. I love listening to Rock/Alternative music because I can release my anger/frustrations through them. I also like Hiphop and RnB, but only as a sideline whenever I take long walks outside.
6. As a follow up to number 6, I get easily angry/irritated, but I don't show/say it because it's very out-of-character and can ruin my image. Hahaha.
7. I laugh out loud frequently, and I'm sure a lot of you know that. It's not because I want to draw attention, but because I honestly find something to be genuinely amusing or hilarious.
8. I don't trust people very much. Perhaps it was brought about by having been raised in a very competitive (and judgmental) environment during my childhood.
9. I've become more picky on clothes ever since college happened. And lazy too. Notice how I'm blogging this when I'm supposed to be doing something else (e.g. reading up on Theology/Microeco/Accounting). :))

008 WAYS TO WIN MY HEART.

For both guys and girls:

1. Be very patient. It's a virtue that certainly applies when dealing with me, since I am wont to popping up in different places and having a short attention span.
2. Be able to accept my flaws and tolerate my irritability.
3. Must be willing to listen to my rants/raves and anything else I want to talk about since I'm usually talkative and find it hard not to chat when I'm bored.
4. Should not be a jerk, backstabber, judgmental, make me feel out of place, awkward or anything of the like.
5. Be nice, agreeable and friendly. Especially to my friends.
6. Should be open-minded and respect LGBT.
7. Have a good sense of humor. And understand why I find some things funny.
8. Must share a lot of interests with me. I know this is hard, but this is also the reason why assigned it as the last number as well. :))

007 THINGS THAT CROSS MY MIND A LOT.

1. The future
2. Friends
3. Family
4. School
5. Org
6. Shopping
7. Sleeping

006 I DO BEFORE I FALL ASLEEP.

1. Do homework
2. Prepare my bag
3. Take note of errands I need to do
4. Chat online (yehes naman)
5. Exercise
6. Eat medicine

005 PEOPLE WHO MEAN A LOT.

1. HS friends
2. College friends
3. Family
4. Relatives
5. Other people who I've met and got along with. In a nutshell, other friends. :))

004 THINGS I'M WEARING RIGHT NOW.

1. ICA shirt
2. jogging pants
3. watch
4. shoes

003 SONGS I LISTEN TO OFTEN.

1. EXILE - Touch the Sky feat. Bach Logic
2. BoA - The Love Bug
3. EXILE - 24karats

002 THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE.

1. To have made and seen a difference in this world (i know, super miss universe answer), like having found a permanent alternative to nonrenewable resources, find a cure for an epidemic, etc.
2. Make the most out of what I have now. Graduate college (perhaps with a minor/double major degree), attain a master's degree and find a decent working environment. This also includes traveling and making as many friends as I can.

001 CONFESSION.

1. There is something about me that many people do not know, not even some of my possibly closest friends. The only ones who might know about it are my immediate family, relatives, friends whom I've shared it with, and my Fil 12 professor (it was hard for me; I even cried just telling about it).

Dear Diary,

So last week, we were busy taking shifts for Celadon booth during recruitment week. As expected, our member base is still huge (around say, 200), but very underwhelming as compared to last year's 600. I guess not having an OrSem really sucks, especially when it comes to marketing and promotions. The idea of having an OrSem later during the year just because of a supposed swine flu epidemic certainly doesn't change things. The poor freshmen have to start looking for the buildings prior to the first day just so they won't get lost and miss their classes. I figure they should simply forfeit the whole thing. I mean, even if they do spend the entire day running around and showing various landmarks in school, it's not like the freshmen don't know what they're all about already. In addition, OrSem is short of logistics people. Useless, really.

In any case, during Recweek our org performed a short skit on Wednesday lunch time for the Interculturals and Relations Cluster. Then on Friday, I was randomly called up to the stage by Nestea to endorse our org. It was embarrassing since I had nothing much to say. The host beside me even said, "Go Les, kaya mo iyan!" HAHAHA. Public speaking FAIL. :))

Also that morning, I was listening to 89.9 FM and heard that Michael Jackson was confirmed dead. I was really shocked since I've been exposed to MJ's music as a kid, even back during the laser disc era. Not that I was a fan, but his music was probably some of the most memorable in our generation, way before he started becoming crazy and bleached his skin white. One of my friends in the org even managed to cut a history class because he was so depressed and forlorn over his demise. RIP MJ.

And then yesterday, mom and I went to Fort Tent Sale to buy more clothes. Later on she dropped me off at Omakase Eastwood to meet up with fellow Celadoneans. We had platters of sushi for dinner and went to the cinema afterwards to watch Transformers 2. As I figured, Transformers 2 was full of action and didn't have much of a plotline. Our row constantly laughed out loud at the scenes which did not make any sense (e.g. the decepticon girl, balls of steel and Sam's neardeath vision). They were so bizarre and cliche it felt like my brain was decaying. HAHAHA.

So that leaves me a week before OrSem starts. I'll be busy on Friday despite not having classes since I'm an usher for SOM Night as well as a volunteer for Doc and Pub. For those upperclassmen who don't have anything to do on Friday, please do join OrSem Log! They're only 60 right now and there are around 180 blocks. So if you have time to spare, it would help them out a lot. Thank you!

Until next time!

- Les